Most of us should have played trust fall before. Suppose to juz fall freely and trust that others will catch you before you fall. I played this game 2 years. That time, it was a group of girls standing around in circle, and i was suppose to juz stand in the middle like 不倒翁. I couldn't fall properly at first. Lack of trust ba. But at the end, it was quite fun really.

Yesterday, i was with the same group of friends. And we played that game again. I would have thought that after the experience of the first game, i would trust them enough to fall and enjoy. However, i find myself having greater trouble than before to fall freely. It was instinct to try and catch myself before i fell. I can't control myself!

Perhaps, the greatest difference was this time round, it was no longer a circle of people catching me but one partner. After my partner complained, the other pair of girls tried. And i did manage to fall a bit further before i try to "save" myself.

Was it becos i don't trust my partner? Was it because there are more people, more trust? Or because they aren't standing as far behind? Or cos before the game, my partner told me i'll definitely fall?

It is really easier to trust a group of people, than a single person. There is more strength in group. If one fails, there are others for support. That's why we all need to have friends. It is also easier to trust people who are closer to me. In the game, it was more physical distance. In real life situation, it is easier to trust closer friends, esp people who have earned your trust.

However, when i was playing the game, i only told myself to fall. I didn't assure myself that there was someone behind to catch me. Logically, i know he is there and that he would catch me. Would things be easier if i had picture someone standing behind? I think it have help if i was falling forward. At least, I could see.

Realised i was never a very trusting person, never one to rely on others. Unless i could see. Wonder if things would be different had it been one of my good friends standing behind. But even as i write this, i fear they would ask me to play the game with them. lol... So, whoever read this, don't ever try.