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2007-03-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

2006-10-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

Most of us should have played trust fall before. Suppose to juz fall freely and trust that others will catch you before you fall. I played this game 2 years. That time, it was a group of girls standing around in circle, and i was suppose to juz stand in the middle like 不倒翁. I couldn't fall properly at first. Lack of trust ba. But at the end, it was quite fun really.

Yesterday, i was with the same group of friends. And we played that game again. I would have thought that after the experience of the first game, i would trust them enough to fall and enjoy. However, i find myself having greater trouble than before to fall freely. It was instinct to try and catch myself before i fell. I can't control myself!

Perhaps, the greatest difference was this time round, it was no longer a circle of people catching me but one partner. After my partner complained, the other pair of girls tried. And i did manage to fall a bit further before i try to "save" myself.

Was it becos i don't trust my partner? Was it because there are more people, more trust? Or because they aren't standing as far behind? Or cos before the game, my partner told me i'll definitely fall?

It is really easier to trust a group of people, than a single person. There is more strength in group. If one fails, there are others for support. That's why we all need to have friends. It is also easier to trust people who are closer to me. In the game, it was more physical distance. In real life situation, it is easier to trust closer friends, esp people who have earned your trust.

However, when i was playing the game, i only told myself to fall. I didn't assure myself that there was someone behind to catch me. Logically, i know he is there and that he would catch me. Would things be easier if i had picture someone standing behind? I think it have help if i was falling forward. At least, I could see.

Realised i was never a very trusting person, never one to rely on others. Unless i could see. Wonder if things would be different had it been one of my good friends standing behind. But even as i write this, i fear they would ask me to play the game with them. lol... So, whoever read this, don't ever try.

2006-10-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

昨天剛過完中秋﹐總覺得今年少了什麼。人說月圓﹐人團圓。昨天﹐家里卻只有我和媽媽兩人。最可惡的是連月亮也缺席了﹗聽說今年的月亮是9年以來最大的﹐可我怎麼也找不到它。只見窗外煙霧瀰漫﹐還有一股難聞的臭味。真掃興。
但今年的中秋也不算太糟。相隔10年後﹐我們一家終於在上周回到中國花園慶中秋。有以下相片為證。hee...
遺憾的是今年沒能回去華初與67一起唱"一首華初的歌",一起大跳wild wild west. 這個時候的大家應該玩的很高興吧。

2006-06-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Juz got home from hk, with lots of fotos. http://www1.snapfish.com/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=44613788/a=8206578_8206578/t_=8206578
very sianz now.... write more later...

2006-02-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question. "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?" The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe, that when a child like Shay comes >into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child." Then he told the following story: Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and, getting none, he took matters into his own hands and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning." In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the outfield. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher took the ball and turned and threw the ball on a high arc to right field, far beyond the reach of the first baseman. Everyone started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" By the time Shay rounded first base, the right fielder had the ball. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward second base as the runners ahead of him deliriously circled the bases toward home. Shay reached second base, the opposing shortstop ran to him, turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third!" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams were screaming, "Shay, run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team. "That day," said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world."

2005-12-04T17:08:00.000+08:00

It's hols again! Like my new pet? So cute ritez? haha. But Poh Pooh still the cutest. Yeah!!!
Now downloading stuff for my Sims. Seen some of the stuff they make for Sims 2. So nice!!! It is 3D, so really got gan jue. But after spending so much effort on my Sims 1 neighourhood, still feel like switching over, and starting all over again. See how lah. This month going to be very broke. Already can't stand the wait, think i'm not going to wait for hp price to drop. lol.... still got so many present to buy. Pls bday gals, let mi noe wat u wan, so i can keep a lookout. :p

2005-11-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

In the midst of my exams now... 3 down, 2 more to go. juz 3 more days before hols. Can't wait to go n see harry potter movie. This time is the latest, usually watch it right on the first day of screening. Think i'm finally going to buy the book as well since now hols will have lots of time. Wishing these 3 days will fly quickly, yet torn between wanting more time to study. Have to go back to my organic chem. Longifolene... longifolene....Good luck to myself!

2005-10-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

Mei Ling juz started this site selling clothes, bags, shoes etc. Some are used but still in good conditions, others are brand new. Anyone interested in buying stuff, can visit
pink-cactus.blogspot.com :)

In addition, i need help with survey. Pls visit http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=818471394522 and give ur honest answers. Thanks!

2005-10-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

Haven't been writing for very long. So busy with midterms and projects. juz realized to my horror that the GEK project is due next friday. i was still thinking there are weeks to work on it. :( Luckily, we decided on the topic le. juz found the personality thingy on friendster's bulletine, so i posted it up here. It is quite accurate for me. hmm.... i dun like to believe in such things but they really accurate. Issit cos i choose to see wat i wan to see or issit i subconsciously affected by them n bacum like wat they describe??? Dunno but it is good to have a laugh over it. hee... just recieve a sms quiz yesterday n forwarded it. quite fun to look at all the ans that are so impossible. :p

2005-07-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

Just completed my new blogskin. Nice? Thanks to Jie Ying for helping to do the photos. It is so beautiful!!! I love it! and thanks to Ming Jun for the html code for the password. If you are reading this entry, it means you have got the password right. It is too easy, issit? Got the idea from LOTR. haha... shd be changing to a harder password, so there will be no unathorised pple reading this. Heard from my sis, their sch teachers actually read their blog! So scary...
Next month's highlight is also out earlier. It is a personality test i just did. Took me half an hour but the results quite accurate. Too bad have to pay for the full report... which i of cos wun be paying. :p
School starting in one week time. So fast... now doing the hateful online bidding. Tis time round i had everything paln nicely. but even the best laid plans can go wrong. i was unable to declare chemistry as my major. In the end, i miss round 1A of the bidding. Can't get 2 of the modules that i wanted. Mess uo my whole timetable as a result. Today, i tried bidding for my biz modules. The bid points al like 500+!! Excuse me, where am i suppose to get so much points? Dun understand those who are bidding for it.... push the points so high, they also suffer wat. Hopefully, next round will be better.
Things really doesn't go well for me today. Went to Woodlands to get my phone service. Turn out they are closing down the service points. Now, i have to go down to Orchard instead. So far n not convienent. Remind me not to get a Song Erisson phone next time.
Then, there's lots of sales at woodands. But i came home empty handed. :( The grey skirt very nice but i too fat le. Sobsob. Maybe, i should have bought that pink skirt. Going back on Sunday.

2005-07-05T16:41:00.000+08:00

It is the month of July! So fast... Can't believe 2 months just flew by.

This month's special is about Tarot. As most of you know, i am rather keen on tarot recently. On that particular website, i found a very good guide to tarot. The Fool's Journey is part of the guide. i found the metaphor for journey through life quite apt and interesting. Perhaps that why tarot still fascinates many today. If you have been influence by me and want to learn more, do visit this website, http://www.learntarot.com/. It is very good.

hmm.... school starting in one month time. Having a big headache, trying to decide what to take. Have to decide by this Friday but the lecturers that i emailed have not replied. Arrggg!!! Going to more research now, so i won't write further.

Looking forward to the 2 steamboat i am going to have over the weekend. One with 4k and another with Ming Jun and Jie Ying. Going to get fat! haha....

2005-06-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

Xiuli went back to her primary school the other day. She reminded me how long it was since i went back to my own primary school. Nearly three years le... wonder how it is like now and if my teachers are still around. The last time i went back, most of the teachers already gone, only saw Miss Seng and Mr Cheng. Mr Cheng should be near retiring. He was 50 when he taught us? Soon there will only be the building that is left. Hopefully, that will stay.

Few years back, there was plan to merge a few primary schools in the area, then demolish the building. Wish it won't happen. RV already undergoing renovation (torn down?). Hwachong JC renamed to Hwachong Institute (with new badge and PE uniforms?). It just don't feel the same anymore...

hmm...Xiuli's teacher remembered her as the girl who went RV. Do my teachers still remember me now? If they do, what will they remember me as? :p

And the last i saw most of the 6G-ians was in sec 3. I remembered we were thinking of organising a chalet cum reunion. Too bad it fell throught in the end. Will anyone try again? Maybe i should arrange something for juz4 Vani n Tina. Promised Vanitha we will try to meet up. But i have been too lazy. Really must shake off this slacking mode.

2005-06-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

Juz spend the whole day talking to Ming Jun and Xiuli on the phone. Guess i am in the social mood today. Seems like i am talking non-stop. Xiuli and i had been on the phone 4 times today!!! Amazing! And now, i am talking to myself. haha...On days when i dun feel like talking, my answers are alwaes mono-syllabus. However, today really have quite a meaningful conversation. :)

Hmm... also juz finish chatting with boon peng on msn. haiz... juz 2 days ago, i declared my love for organising gatherings. Now, i have changed my mind. It is never easy where people are concerned. Maybe it is juz me thinking too much...

Originally, i thought the gathering will be for everyone. The idea for it first came up in that messy 2J msn session. Xiaolu had been coming back every few years. Our gang alwaes meet up. Make sense, when boon peng n bendict suggested a gathering, that it will be for everyone. But suddenly there was a "list of guests".

Actually, i can understand that. I was probably part of the force that cause this to precipitate. Our gang was quite witdrawn from the class. It is okay for class gatherings. But as Xiuli rightly pointed out, Xiaolu is the focus of this dinner. It will not do to have her overshadowed. On the other hand, Xiaolu is very self conscious and doesn't want overwhelming attention.

Solution -- restrict the dinner to a comfortable level.

I felt very bad about leaving out the rest. All of us do. But honestly speaking, i am probably more comfortable with the idea of a small gathering. At war with myself now. Wish it is juz another simple 2j gathering. But maybe the issue here is just that i am uncomfortable with myself.

Ops... getting too moody again.

Ending off on a lighter note(or higher :p), results released today. I got all As!!!
CAP for this sem is 4.7 leh! But when average out with last sem, it is 4.5. Still Great isn't it!!! I am really better at studies than interpersonal relationships. :)

2005-05-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

Have been a long time since i touched my blog. Have been meaning to design a new blogskin but after much experimentation, i still prefer this. Simple n sweet. But i have added a new feature? hee... decide to put something on my first page afterall. it was too empty. So now, i am going to put a highlight of the month there. It will alwaes be abt myself or things i find interesting. So that my dear friens can learn something more abt mi! Currently, it is on the ox personality. Since most of you are also born in the year of ox, you can take a look and see if it is accurate. :)

Enjoying my 3 mths hols now. Time really flies when i am enjoying. Alrd it is the last day of May. Huifen just reminded me that results coming out in 2 days time. Soon, i have to start decide what course to take and the specific modules. Still quite torn btw chem n applied chem. Both seems equally gd... or bad? haha... i start on the topic of sch again. Have been reading through my friendster testimonials. Nearly all of them suggest i am too nerdz. Was abt to protest but here i am thinking abt sch in the hols. :p

Can't wait for the 11th. Xiaolu will be back in Spore. Nearly a year since i last seen her. Still haven't recieve her letter. Wonder if she's playing postman or had the letter been lost somewhere btw US n Spore? Been calling up a lot of old 2J frens. Hopefully, they'll all turn up. I find myself liking to orgainse gatherings. But i haven't too sucessful with the 4b gatherings. To date, xc still haven't seen kp but we alrd lost the ethu. Praying hard that i wun have to disappoint Xiaolu also --- where "peanuts" is concern.

Juz picked up the harmonica again n now i am studying tarot. Yet to find the ideal set of cards though, so can't start yet. Seems like all those on sale are in chinese. i maybe very cheena but i dun read chinese. Too tedious. heez... Juz sign up for an online course on feng sui also. Suddenly, very interested in all these supertitious stuff. Kinda strange of a science student, huh? If anyone noes of any interesting site or books on things like astrology, iching, tarot, feng sui, palmistry etc can intro to me. Thx. :)

2005-04-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

juz now saw Keith's nick on msn. He had the link to his blog and he did some interesting quiz... hee... so of cos i went to do some. haha... really ought to be working on my lab report.

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You May Be a Bit Dependent ...

You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.

You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.

It's difficult for you to survive on your own...

And you don't reallly think you ever could.

What Personality Disorder Are You?

You Are A Weeping Willow Tree

You are a dreamer, and you're into almost any kind of escapism.

Restless and capricious, you love to travel to exotic places.

You are easily influenced by others, as long as they don't pressure you.

You tend to suffer in love until you find that one loyal, steadfast partner.

An empathetic friend, you love to make others smile and laugh.

What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability.
You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea.
Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion.
You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone.
If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Your EQ is

107

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2005-03-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today is Jeff Chang's Birthday!!! Happy Birthday!

2005-03-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

hmm... this entry is coming kinda late. Meaning to write this since 9th March. That's of cos about my BIG day! The day when i turn 20...
It is kind of a big excitement. Afterall, it is a big jump from 1+ to 2+.

The eve of my birthday was so exciting. haha... Shuhui ask me to meet her earlier before lecture, somemore it is at yih. So i thought something is up. Then, Xiuli said something very cryptic, abt meeting before 11 is too early when we already agree it will be before 12. Well, i got to yih...n Surprise! Meiling, Xiuli and Shuhui were waiting for me with my birthday cake and presents! Thanks the three of you for throwing this surprise party. Really enjoyed the cake and as Xiuli should know I have been wearing the necklace everyday. :)

Very qiao... that day at yih also saw zhou feng. He helped us took the photo. haiz... i forgot to ask him for the photo we took together at prom. :( hmm... and Xiuli, i want the birthday photos!

This year celebrated my birthday 4 times. When i got home, my mum was waiting for me at the mrt station. We went to choose the cake together. Then at night, we celebrated my birthday again. My sis bought a whole lot of presents, the pot of birthday bean, a Winnie the Pooh jigsaw, a new handphone pouch and a MP3 player! Very nice and generous of my sis hor. Love her!!!

The third celebration muz be mention together with my bazaar stall. From 10 to 12th march, we had a fundraising stall at Arts forum, selling cookies, ice cream and stuff donated be NUS lecturers. The first day duty was very sianz. Luckily, Xiuli also manning her USP stall nearby. But guess my fellow committee member not very happy abt this "traitor" since i spend more time at xiuli's stall than my own. :p

The second day was slightly better. It was very funny. When i reached the stall, Chee Shing extended his hand for me to shake. I was very question mark. Why on earth does he want to shake hands? I suddenly remember a story Jie Ying told me... It turns out that he misunderstood that that day was my birthday. Becos due to some strange arrangement of fate, 3 of our com members had bday during the bazaar period and it is consecutive somemore.

That day, we also had to put up the banner at our stall. The guys and Shi Hui very evil. They tricked Yingyan into believing that we are taking shifts to look after the stall that night and made her take the 1st shift. They are so good at crapping and faking that even Michelle and i was starting to doubt. But Ying Yan for some reason was very slow that day. They had actually prepared birthday cards for the 3 bday pple. She forgotten that i was there and ask right in front of me who haven't signed the cards. haha... it spoils a bit of surprise element but i was really touched that they actually put efforts to celebrate our bday.

The best thing was of cos on sat itself, the open house. Early that day, i met Ming Jun and went to the openhouse with her. it was really crowded, could hardly move. Unfortunately, biz at arts was not even half as good. We called for a closing down sale and everything went at $1. Dennis and I were eyeing the 2 bears. They are really cute and cheap (not that i noe what to do with them). Too bad they were sold in the end.

After we close shop, they magicked the cake out of the ice cream box. I was so surprised! I was manning the ice cream all the time, neither did i see them put it in nor did i noice it inside. It was from secret recipe.i heard Shi Hui telling Stanley where secret recipe was, so he could drive there. Guess i a bit sua gu... dinno what secret recipe was until i saw the cake box. Wondering if they put the cake in when Liyan ask mi to fill water bottle.... diao hu li shan? Anyway, really grateful to the comm members for giving me suh a wonderful surprise. The cake was delicious and the card is very nice.

Last but not least, i like to thank Jie Ying and Ming Jun. Sat was a busy day. Make you two wait so long for me for dinner, really paiseh. I love the portrait Ming Jun draw for me. It looks very like me. (maybe becos i look chioer also ;)) hmm... not to forget wanjun, swee kiat, huifen, tina, seow chun and maybe more that i forgot.

me making a wish...and that's my mum.

Me...Wei Leen...Steph (9th, 10th, 11th)

The bazaar comm pple. I am at the corner.

Finally, gotten this from Xiuli. :)

2005-02-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

wow... so long haven't touch my blog. Really busy and the stupid blog alwaes dun work when i try to view it. That's why i din bother writing but today the problem miraclously solve itself. haha...
i juz learn some new things abt java script. Can't wait to try it out. But i guess still have to wait cos a lot of tutorials and test coming.

it's term break next week. Finally, already counting down to my birthday and the bazaar. So many in the bazaar comm have bday juz ard the bazaar date. Guess can have a big celebration at the end.
Writing for the sake of writing is tough. Dunno wat to write...except i am in a very anti social mode lately, wonder why?
But at least there's xiaolu's letter to look forward to. It is a huge letter with lots of stuff. Dying with curiousity le. And there's the letter to Jieying and MingJUn.
After reading the touching email from ming jun, i very very gan dong. Initially, very motivated to write sumthing similiar for her. However, i not very gd with words, esp writin. So well, i juz like to say here to Ming Jun, Jieying, Xiaolu, Meiling, Xiuli, I am really happy to have all of you for my friens. You all are absolutely the greatest! Don't know how i could survive w/o u gals by my side, giving me continuous support. Love ya lots! I am not very good at socialising, dunno how to express all my concern for u. But know this, i really treasure all of you. :)

2005-01-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

Falling sick...
First, it is a slight cold, then it is sore throat.
This morning, it is cough, now it is sever flu.
Haiz...

today was helping at xiuli's stall in the bazaar. Biz was bad. I first i thought juz go there n buy sumthing from her. She said manning the booth alone. And dunno wat made mi there. Maybe i juz dunno wat to do with myself. We ended up entertaining each other for 2 hours. Not too bad but wish biz was better. We bought flowers for each other. So qiao...both of us though of buying the flower for the other. Xin you lin xi? :P

Tmr is the workshop. We still haven't reach the target 50 students. i guess it doesn't matter. Afterall, the mc and our committe will make up for the rest. It should be an exciting affair, the climax of months of hard work. But i feel too sick and tired to get work up. After tmr, our committee will split path. Wonder when we'll get to work together again. Really enjoyed the last few months...
Hope tmr will be a great smash!

Actually, xiuli suggested that ahe will buy dinner for me tmr. Sounds like she is considering about the workshop. I should be happy. But dunno why i feel very bad and guilty. Not only towards her but Sook Wai and Wan Jun also. Normally, if i am in their shoes, i will refuse. So i wonder if they are truly interested or pressured into it... by me. Especially Xiuli...did she feel compelled to join the workshop becos i accompanied her through her shift today? Maybe i should tell her not to go...
Strangely, i know her for so long. Yet we are so polite with each other.

2005-01-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

today was giving out flyer outside lt 27. So sianz... nobody bothers lor. Still short of 18 pple. Even if main comm pple turn up. We still need at least 10 pple. haiz... thought this workshop shd be quite interesting and attractive wat. Hopefully, we will get more replies through the email.
Can't wait till next fri for the workshop!
PS if ming jun you reading, the workshop is mainly abt learning more abt yourself and the way u communicate with pple, through the 5 main categories of ways of expressing love for family and friends, and of cos bf and gf. :)

2005-01-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

juz this morning, i thought there was a lot of work to be done. But now, i am sitting in front of the com, not knowing what to do. There are lots of tutorials but i dun feel like doing now. Strange... i was so enthu to start work this morning. haha..
Dun feel like playing or reading either, so decided to do some update before i get anymore complains. :p
Actually, i have been very busy since sch started. Organising a workshop and a stall at the bazaar. It is fun! Really enjoy with the committee member. Yesterday, we were at the tv lounge designing the booth. Luckily,the seniors were ard to help with the last min work. Esther and Cheng Ho were so funny and entertaining. Going to miss working together when the workshop ends next fri. Hopefully, it will be a great success!
yesterday, i also joined the weiqi club. actually not sure if i wan to stay in it. The club is so small and they dun do anything but go there find a partner and play. hmm.... to stay in sch and rot for 3 hrs while waiting. Might as well buy a set and play at home or sumthing.
hmm.... written quite a lot. Now going msn to pester pple to sign up for the workshop. haha. :)

2005-01-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally a new blogskin. This time even the background is i design one. haha... not very impressive but okay, right! It took me quite some time to get the link buttons. So now, i feel very man zu gan.Now too busy to write more, cos havinbg this very luan msn with 2j pple. hee... wish xiaolu aso up now.But she coming back in june. Yeah!

2004-12-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

haiz... having headache over which hp to get. panasonic 400 or samsung 600? Both have their good and bad... really dunno. headache.
hmm... trying to get to meiling's blog. dunno why cannot. ML, if u reading this latest update, pls leave your blog add. And XL too. thx.
Yesterday went shopping with the 2 of them, walk all the way from orchard to dobby ghaut... until now my feet still very sore. Shop so much, still empty handed. :p

2004-12-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

hmm... meiling complained that i need to update my blog. haha...okay, so here's the update. But today too tired, went shopping with meiling n xiuli. Now feel like sleeping. Wondering if i should go for co prac tmr????
Really lookin forward to sunday. My pri sch friends meeting up. Last year, only 4 pple went. Wonder hu will go this year? So far, only tina, seow chun, keith and hanchong confirm going. Hopefully, Keith manage to persuade the rest. Can't wait...

2004-11-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

Finish 3 papers!
Only 3 more to go... and 5 more days!
I will be FREE!!!
haha... this hols will be goin to Malacca shopping. Still got my jizsaw to work on, the new fish tank. So excited. Wondering if i shd buy sims 2. Very tempted. hehe...
But my hols not as fun as ah mei. Go taiwan leh, so fun. Next yr, muz persuade mama and papa to go there or hk. haha.
Have to go back to study le. :(

2004-09-30T16:41:00.000+08:00

Finally finish all the exams and most assignments. Can rest le!!! Got back results for 2 tests today. Did quite well. hehe. 18/20 and 23.5/25. Not bad huh! But still got 2 more essays need to be done. haiz... work can never be finish. by the time, i finish the essays project, the next round of tests will be bombarding me. :( Really feel like reading story, esp coldfire trilogy os sleeping! This blog alwaes make me feel so peaceful and sleepy. Stupid meimei sat it ugly. *fuming* Juz kidding... trying to think of a new theme... maybe more holiday like. haha!

2004-09-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

Finally, i finish my latest blogskin. Its not perfect. Initially, i wanted it to have a pic of a bed, like my jigsaw. well, so far haven't found the ideal pic, hav to make do with this.
Wow... i very lazy leh. shd be studying for my test tomoro. But can't stand the temptation. Feel like i must do this. Don't know why. Now, i very happy and satisfied, can go back to studying liao. :)

2004-09-10T15:51:00.000+08:00

Still haven't quite gotten use to the idea of sch. Still sleeping late but waking up earlier. Doesn't help that i have days when i can sleep late. By the end of the week, i very tired liao. Like now, i almost sleeping in my chair... Especially since the tests are coming next week, then the SS presentation... really dunno wat's there to say abt political opposition in Singapore.
Well, life is still very interesting though. I am in a "secret society". haha... can't tell anyone about it. Feel so weird. But the pple there are very friendly and nice. Really enjoying the training session.
Then, last week i went for dinner with 67. So nice to see so many of them turn up. :)
But too bad only Mr Lau and Mr Remedios came. Nvm, MAF is next week!

2004-08-29T14:11:00.000+08:00

I am so happpy!!! My Botany finally raised to rank 3000++. Too bad the game is ending in a few days. But nvm, i already learn the trick. Nxt round, i will rise to among the top 1000. :) If only i am doing as well in dl. My poor character could never kill anyone properly w/o dying. Ashke even lost her favor. haiz... thinking of creatin a new character and starting all over again. can't think of a nice name though. Been to the library and borrow a few books, but still no inspiration. These few books aren't that good. Thinking of rereading the coldfire trilogy, shd go to woodlands library soon.
However, not really in the mood to go anywhere on weekends. Sch is so tiring, 6 days week. *groan* Well, actually it isn't that packed as jc ( i even get to sleep late on a few days), lessons is also much interesting( actually looking forward to lessons for the first time). Guess i am still not use to studying after the long hols.
Another bad thing is the lack of classmates. Really miss the 67ians. Lectures and tutorials used to be so exciting, now really can't get use to the quietness... If it wasn't for the interesting topics, i will have fallen alseep... :p

2004-08-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, i am back to writing. It had been a very hectic month with school starting and so on. Yes, school hav started.... for 3 weeks already. Can't believe time really can fly by with a blink of the eyes. Who was it who said that 7 months holiday is too long and you can be bored to death? Strongly Disagree!!! I haven't enjoy enough yet!
Actually, school isn't that bad. Except for a stupid lecturer who always put notes and tutorials up last minute. I am going to have a heart attack someday. And then, the school shuttle bus is also very lousy. Should go all the way to the mrt station mah. Since it is already in running, what difference does it make to them to have it run a few extra distance during morning and after school. Well, that's actually not that bad. What happen yesterday was worse.... much worse. I was let off lecture 30mins early. So i happily went to the bus stop, thinking i will have lots of time before the next lecture. Then, first bus past by without stopping( too full). Okay, understandable since most people are let off around this time. Next bus also past by and the next and next. Even 95 was packed like sardine. After what seems like an eternity, i finally manage to get on to 95( shuttle bus still packed, so i have to pay for the trip). I was late! Sit right at the back! All because of the school's lousy system.
Well, other than those black sheeps, school is actually not too bad. My orientation group, Orion, is very on and fun. (though i miss most of the orientation) Lesson is fun, especially chemistry in space, programming and complementary medicine. For the first time in my entire school lofe, i am lookingforward to these lessons. Haven't gotten to know much people outside my orientation group and old friends. I just had my first tutorial today. There wasn't time in class for much interaction, so i still don't know any new friends. I don't think i will get to know any. haha....
hmm..... there's a quiz coming up on Thurs, so i can't be online for too long, need to study. However, i have to be online very often now. (Wondering if i should get my own laptop??? ) Today, i got an inspiration for a new blogskin. Guess it will have to wait until after my quiz. Good luck, for my quiz!

2004-07-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Xiaolu flown back to China yesterday. Her trip is too short, only manage to see her twice. We went for dim sum buffet and shopping on Fri, then watch spiderman on Sat and ate ThaiExpress. Haha... eat too much in the two days, now i am so fat. Really nice to see her again, though we din get to tok much. Anyway, now i have got her blog add, so easier to see what's happening in each other life. Wonder when i will see her again... she dropped the bombshell yesterday, she need not return to S'pore to renew her passport. The next meeting seems so far away...
Hmm... as for the APC, going to fail everything badly or at least i hope i will fail. I don't know what the whole test is about. If i hengheng pass, how am i going to ever understand more advance stuff w/o the basics? And worse of all, i fell down and there is an enomous blueblack on my leg and it is still there. At least, it is not a wasted trip. I got to know 4 new friends. Although we intend to do different majors, it is still good to know more pple in the sch. Pity sch is going to start soon. I haven't have enough of hols! :p

2004-07-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

Horray!!! Xiaolu is back in Singapore! And my computer is fixed! Haha... so many good news. And two of my tuition students showed improvements in their results. This calls for celebration. Hmm.. after my test this week. Think my luck will continue to allow me to sail through this test, still have to study hard thought. Meeting up with Xiaolu on Friday. Wonder where we should go to catch up on each other and enjoy ourself at the same time? 2 more days before the test, 3 more before the meeting. Can't wait...

2004-07-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

So sad. My computer spoils again. It said some files missing or corrupted, need the set up disc to repair. Strange, must have been a virus attack but i didn't open any strange email yesterday. Then, there is the firewall for protection. Haiz.... so now i cannot finish my sims. Thought today i can finish up the drew and tyler family, maybe all, then i can start on my new family. Well, all hopes down the drain. At least, i can be glad that i finally finish my first round of revision. Horray!

2004-06-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

Today, i ran into so much trouble. The student pass without my realising. I had to buy those single trip tickets and use coins and so on. Luckily, i left my house earlier today or i will be very late for my tuition lesson. The thing bothering me is that i apply before the day i was suppose to apply and i only had to pay $5 when the intruction said it is $11. Hope nothing is wrong. Guess i have to buy the adult ezlink for temporary usage.
Yesterday, there was blackout again in many parts of Singapore. We was lucky to escape. Must be because we do not get our electricity from the same power station. The 2nd last mass blackout happens 10 years ago but in this year alone, there are 2 such blackout. So ominous, reminds me of simcity. Anyway, Huimin claimed she was so excited that she coldn't sleep last night and was not in the mood to do well in the lesson today. Lesson went quite badly but well, i understand. When there was a blackout last time, i couldn't sleep too. One strange thing, both recent blackout happens on a tuesday.
Have to get back to my books. Next thursday, i have to sit for the advance placement credits test. Feel like reading novels now though, especially the coldfire trilogy. I missed Gerald Tarrant character.

2004-06-29T16:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i was so angry at my sis. She is terrible!!! Messed up my cupboard. Not long ago, i just packed everything neatly and proudly showed her. I SHOWED her and you would think this will make her realise the effort i took and how much pride i took in it. But what happens?
It is not just in maths that she needs telling thrice. That time she leave my beloved harry potter book lying flat open, resulting in the defacing of MY book, I blowed up at her. But did she remember the lesson? NO! This time, she did the same thing all over again. Okay, this is not my favourite book and so i should not be so fluster. However, this book is not mine. I borrowed it from my student. Not only does the state of the book reflect on me, it will also set a bad example. AArrrggg!
I understand she does not care much about cleaniness and neatness and carefulness. She can dumped all her bags on the bad and don't care what grow in her room. I do advise her and volunteer to help but i do not touch her stuff without permission. Why can't she understand i need my stuff neat and tidy? She gets so worked up when she find her room tidy and why can't she draws the parallel between her situation and mine? I truly wonder if i haven't scold her and ask her to pack, will she remember what she did to my room and undo the damage without being told. Maybe if this happens again, i should ban her from my room or make her ask for everything.

2004-06-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

A Storeowner was tacking a sign above his door that read "Puppies for Sale." The signs have a way of attracting children. Soon a little boy appeared at the sign and asked, "How much are you going to sell those puppies for?" The store owner replied, "Anywhere from $30-$50."
The little boy reached into his pocket and pulled out some change. "I have $2.37,can I look at them?"
The storeowner smiled and whistled. Out of the kennel came his dog,
named Lady, running down the aisle of his store followed by five little puppies. One puppy was lagging considerably behind. Immediately the little boy
saw a lagging, limping puppy. He asked, "What's wrong with that little dog?"
The man explained that when the puppy was born, the vet said that this
puppy had a bad hip socket and would limp for the rest of his life. The
little boy got really excited and said, "That's the puppy I want to buy!"
The man replied: "No, you don't want to buy that little dog. If you really want him, I'll give him to you."
The little boy got upset. He looked straight into the man's eyes and
said "I don't want you to give him to me. He is worth every bit as much as
the other dogs and I'll pay the full price. In fact, I will give you $2.37 now and 50 cents every month until I have him paid for."
The man countered,"You really don't want to buy this puppy son. He is never going to be able to run, jump and play like other puppies."
The little boy reached down and rolled up his pant leg to reveal a
badly twisted, crippled left leg supported by a big metal brace. He looked up at the man and said, "Well, I don't run so well myself and the little puppy will need someone who understands."
The man was now biting his bottom lip. Tears welled up in his eyes, he smiled and said, "Son, I hope and pray that each and every one of these puppies will have an owner such as you."

IN LIFE, IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO YOU ARE, BUT WHETHER SOMEONE APPRECIATES YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE, ACCEPTS YOU AND LOVES YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.
A TRUE LOVE IS ONE WHO WALKS IN WHEN THE REST OF THE WORLD WALKS AWAY.
NOT...WALKING AWAY...WHEN THE THE CRUEL WORLD COME TO U...

2004-06-18T16:19:00.000+08:00

So fast, another week has gone by. KL was okay, let me exercise a lot cos the tour guide keeps sayin very near only, os we walk and walk and walk. Din get to buy much. Mama saying wanna go again. haha... no thx! But Genting was nice. It is a pity we only manage to get on 3 rides. Maybe next time we sign cruise package, then go again. hee... planes and train down, left ships... woo... lookin forward to the next trip.

2004-06-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

Woo... going kl tonight!!! So excited!!!! Packing my stuff now. Countdown 7.5hrs more to boarding the train. Lousy to have a sore throat now but it won't stop me from enjoying my holiday!

2004-06-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

haiz... recieve the call from nus oam offerin me law. Why??? After i finally decided i like science and settle to do science, they hav to give mi another thing to think abt. So much trouble. To accept or not??? Dun think i will get along with law pple as well as science and i will probably be at the botttom of the class. Shdn't matter if i like the sub. Guess i like it better since i dun like prac. But my english sucks? If i can't do well, the degree in law won't serve me well.

2004-05-28T11:49:00.000+08:00

Stupid nus!!! So inefficient. The letter supposed sent out on 21st and i haven't recieve it yet. How to reply by Mon??? Now i am so worried. Still hav to attached photos accordin to meiling. I only hav one left. Hopefully, they dun need more than one. Guess i hav to call them later, now probably lunch time. HAiz... hope they give me a better ans than asking me to go down personally. I dunno where to find their finacial office...

2004-05-22T13:03:00.000+08:00

horray!!! going to KL soon.... can't wait for it. never seen a train with sleepin quarters, so this time finally can see. But Xiuli is luckier, get to go new zealand, see the place of LOTR filming...
hmm.... watched Troy recently, quite disappointing. The movie is good but i wish they mention more abt the greek myths, rather than pure war. Those pple are mostly flawed and care only abt war. Can't believe man is so stupid. The worst thing is basically everyone dies. I hate tragedy!!! Looking forward to seeing Harry Potter. At least, the story will be more relaxin. haha...

2004-05-13T16:24:00.000+08:00

bad luck. I am sick again!!!:(
Now i am working on a flash for Ming JUn's birthday. First time doing flash. Coming on quite smoothly. Thx god. got a new idea on what to do for my blog, will start on it after the flash. Tomoro going to watch Troy, wonder if it is as good as the ratings make it out to be...

2004-05-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

feel like changing the look of this blog... wondering what's a good theme... dreams? Spring? Angels? hmm...

2004-05-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

Phew... my com juz recover from two virus attacks!!! Ops, no worms! whatever's the diff... i suppose the com is now safer with more immunity after the firewall thingy. BUT now i can't collect my interest due to sum security problem... EEEeeee

2004-04-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

Went for the interview today. I am quite lucky cos my interviewers quite friendly. Maybe that's why i wasn't nervous. The questions wasn't too tough. However, i do not think i want to do law. I saw possible classmates and they are so english and out spoken. I dun think i can fit in if i make it... Surprisingly, i sound quite convince that i want to be a lawyer, manage to make myself believe i really like law more than science. haha...

2004-04-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

Tok to Sook Wai last night...seems like she too has not recieve any reply from nus. That's more assuring. I think i will go Science afterall if i don't make it for law. Actually, i am suppose to type the account abt myself and why i chose law now. So difficult... if only for doctor, there is still sumthin to crap abt, like how interact club activities and myself going to hospital make me wan to help pple. But law??? hmm.... what's there abt my character and experience that's relevant to law??? Haiz... tough. Then, the written test also dunno test on what. Dun even feel like going for the interview and test. Do i want to do law? haha...

2004-04-26T17:32:00.000+08:00

AArrrgggghhhhhhh.............
I recieved the letter askin me to go for the interview and written test. I am so worried, wonder what they will ask. I dunno anything about law or current affairs. Actually, i can't even answer the simple qns of why i want to law. Cos i am not even sure i wan to. I got recieve the letter from NTU. I have to confirm if i wanna do accountancy by 3rd May... I really confuse if i want law or accountancy or Science.
Have to pay $100, if i pay, then dun qualify for law, all's well. But if i pay, then qualify for law, it is a waste of $100. If i dun pay and dun qualify for law, that means i have to do Science. That's if they offer me Science. Quite scary, cos those who put science first choice have recieve letters offering admission. Does that means i will only be offered a place if there is still vancancies? If there isn't??? But then, they say we have equal chance whether we put it as first or second choice...Should i pay just to buy me more time and give me more choices? But $100 isn't cheap!
Thing with law and accountancy is that they are just studying by book and applying common sense to other problems. Should be easy... Science isn't that difficult either but i nv really like Science, esp lab sessions. Considering job opportunities, law and account is more professional. Science dun even allow me to do attachment. What can i do with sumthin so general and no work experience? Only research or teachin... biomedical research seems interestin but do i really have the creativity and what it takes to be a scientist? However, i dun find the idea of travelling so far to NTU appealing neither do i wish to stay in a hostel... So conflicting...
Wonder if i can ask for for 2 weeks extension but will the results of interview be out in 2 weeks? Hope i qualify for law...

2004-04-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

haiz... papa, mama muz be havin luch in mapo now or maybe tourin one of the temple... I shd have went!!! I feel like goin but guess it muz be borin with all the aunties. But then, anything is better than giving tuition. Especially when i am a little sick. The fever has gone down but my body is still screaming! AARRRRGGGG!!!!!!!! How do teach like that! dun feel like thinkin...

2004-04-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

feeling very sick today. dun feel like writin

2004-04-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

So FuN!!! Yesterday night, i watched TV halfway ard 11.30, suddenly blackout. At first, we thought the TV spoilt again and tripped the circuit, turn out the whole are all blackout. So many pple with torchlight shining everywhere...really beautiful. Then when the lights come back, the cheers will so loud, so united. Ubfortuntately, the lights go off again soon. The boos will equally loud. As if the whole neighbourhood will watching a football match takin place right at the void deck. Haha... Could hardly sleep with the excitement going on. The electricity finally restored at 12.40. That night, it seems as if all these strangers were one. The feelin is great. Heard there were blackout at boon lay, bukit batok and a few other places. Wonder what's up? Terrorist!!! Juz kiddin.... haiz...have to go for my tuition.

2004-04-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

Juz checked on my test. Results so disappointing... nearly everyone thought i play Sims when i am bored or restless. :) Well, I like Sims and play a lot. However, i find that when i am bored or restless, i have no inspiration on how to develop the story or to design the house. Mental block mah... ... Readin is better. ( can give me new ideas also) Another reason is the computer not alwaes available for usage, either papa sleepin in the room or mama naggin away. haiz...
So far, only Tina and meimei pass. Surprising!!!
I am in one of those bored, restless mood now. Dunno what to do, so i am continuing my neopets. haha... not bad make quite a lot of $$$.

2004-04-09T14:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! I juz finish watchin Jeff! So nice. So long dun hav his news, wonder how he is??? Even this program is filmed so long ago... heard he is developin in China. Hope he will cum soon... The show so short, not ENOUGH!!! I want more. haha

2004-04-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

I broke my record! I was on the phone for nearly 3 hours last night! haha... we started tokin abt what happen in sec 1 and 2. Discover so many things. Din realise that Meiling and Xiuli argued before... and what's so funny was that it turn out that john was present, then when Meiling and I argued he also present. Xiuli was sayin he muz be very surprise that the 3 of us alwaes seem so sweet temper in class, then outside all different. I agree. It never occurs to me that Xiuli will lose her temper. So strange i only find out they argue after 4 years. then the whole thing abt beautiful swan...wonder how that cum abt??? Really miss the days when the 4 of us were classmates. So fun! Now Xiaolu is so far away...hardly get to meet meiling and xiuli since we are all in diff JC and now all workin... hopefully, can at least be together in uni. :)

2004-04-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

I know Ming Jun has been writing all this while but i thought it was one story. Turn out, there were more than 10 on one website. haha...don't she run out of creative juice??? Considering Xiuli's one story has not even taken shape....
Read Ming Jun's story, I Hate my Guardian Angel, yesterday. It is quite well written. Wonder if it is because it is so personal??? Anyway after reading it, i discover there are actually a lot of differences between us. It cause me to wonder in a wild moment whether me too is considered as those hypocrites!?!? I believe strongly in building class spirit, organising and going out on class outings( though i am lazy and prefer stayin at home), sitting together during lunch (why sit alone when you have friens)... ...I am most proud that 2J, 4K and 67 are probably the class with most class spirit, glad that i share in it.
On serious pondering, I am sure I am not a hypocrite but where does it leaves others? Her idea is such pple do so out of compulsion, on thinkin we are a class, a single body, thus must do so and so and not out of real interest. However, I find much joy in such outings.(Others who are less lazy, probably enjoy more)
At least, i can say that i was never accuse of being a flirt. But friens have been accused as flirt and friens have accused others of flirt. What's the definition of flirt??? I dunno. I do know that those accuse of flirting are upset and feel misunderstood. But I do not know why those pple label little action as flirting. I have seen those "flirting" in process and it did not occur to me that they are flirting until others highlight them. Perhaps they are jealous of the attention they are recieving or been protective... I see nuthing flirtatious in their actions? Pple are different but it doesn't mean they are wrong. So friens, don't feel upset by such comments.
Maybe i am shallow. But life in class is interesting becos of such "hypocrites" and "flirts".

2004-04-05T14:48:00.000+08:00

Wow, really recieve a shock when Meiling told me Huiru was in the Miss Singapore Pagent. She looks so different! When i heard the name April Yang, i thought the name sounds famaliar but really couldn't tell it is her. She used to have short hair, talk loud and behave a little tomboyish. Can't believe she is the type to go for pagent. She changed so much. I used to think that i will recognise all my friens even way back to pri sch... seems like i over estimate myself and the ability of time. Wonder what become of those whom i once knew...

2004-04-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

raindrops keep falling on my head.....
haiz..... is the rain ever going to stop? I wanna go out!!! The class is at Jun MIng's house now. But have to walk so far, in the rain... :(
Today is Miss Singapore finals. Sum Yee is in! Wow, she soo zhai, right? But just now when i met Ming Jun said it is so shameful??? Yah, she said Roy and the rest was like sayin she not chio and her ans all so stupid. Since i haven't seen her yet, i can't judge. But how could they??? At least the other juniors don't noe her that well( although the gals seem quite interested in modelling and very impress with her last time), but Roy, Yean Lih etc know her. Shouldn't they support her? What Ming Jun said is stupid abt human resources doesn't sound stupid. It is true! Whatever, i am proud of her. At least, she dares to what she wants. Sincerely hope she will win something.
Just got back from my tuition, the mother wants to increase to two days. That's good! More $$$. Haha... still thought i will get sack cos i dunnoo all my pri science. Today, i crapped my way through all the pulleys qns... zen paiseh. At least, now i learn sumthin neww...
Looks like the rain is lifting, i will end now and hopefully can go out.

2004-03-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

It seems that on my third attempt, this blog is finally fully functionable. Horray!!! 3 cheers for Big.Green.Fish! haha...

2004-03-30T15:35:00.000+08:00

i am crossing my fingers....

2004-03-30T15:02:00.000+08:00

hiz